Come and make it alright...

The past few days I have not been able to get warm. No matter how much I put on I am still freezing. Went to the doctors yesterday.. he of course wants a slew of blood tests. Got some blood work done last night, did a fasting test for diabetes this morning. Nice. I really don't want to know whats wrong with me. I'd rather stick my head in the sand and pretend it doesn't exist ya' know? There is so much crazy health issues that run in my family and I really don't want to have to deal with what some of them have.
I'm still anemic. Been that way as long as I can remember... I have to up my iron pills to four a day! UGH!!!!! I can barely remember to take one pill a day. I've been taking my vitamin religiously Monday-Friday... only because it's on my desk right next to the phone so it's the first thing I see in the morning when I get to work.
Bleh. I should find out Monday where everything stands. They want to do more tests to figure out why I'm anemic.. not sure about taking those yet.

A friend of mine read my tarot cards today. It was fairly interesting.. I don't really believe in that type of thing but it was thought provoking! I didn't write down the card names.. just what they meant and the position they were in.

Daily Lesson - Don't accept anything from yourself but supreme effort.
I don't push myself hard enough and I need to start doing that.

Challenges/Opportunities - What brings sorrow may also give rise to feelings of liberation.
OK, this one kind of stunned me. The way she explained it makes way to much sense. Dad's passing is the sorrow.. but it has given me the strength to leave. I've been on my own before but always really really close (like 10minutes away) to mom. The whole family has always acted like one unit.. and while that's nice, it's kind of suffocating. I need to get out away from it...as much as I love my family they drive me insane. Making the decision to leave, it kind of felt like the weight of the world was lifted from my shoulders. I don't know if it makes sense to anyone else.. but it does to me.

Situation (she asked about my love life.. go figure!) - The past holds clues to your immediate situation. Evaluate past feelings and compare them to what you feel now.
I've done a lot of thinking about people I've had feelings for in the past lately. It's funny that some of them still give me that warm fuzzy feeling inside, just not as intense as it used to be.. but some of them I wonder why I ever felt anything. People change over time I guess.. and so do feelings. She also told me that I need to take a look at the new people in my life and see what I feel for them. Hmm...

Near Future - Make yourself available to people and resources around you. Consider being a team player.
This ties into work. We have a new project coming up and it's being given to me. I'm going to have to learn how to play well with others so to speak since I'm going to need to get people's help every so often on parts of it. She also said (and this cracks me up) that I need to look to people who are "geniuses" like me. ROFL.. funny

and the Advice - Let the world see your skills and talents.
I'd love for the world to see my skills and talents, but I have to get more confident in them. I don't think I'm all that good, but other people do.. so I should learn to listen to them instead of my own inner voices that are negative.

See.. thought provoking isn't it? The last time someone did anything like this it was some loony old bat who stopped me on the street and read my palm. She told me I was going to die at 30.. and here I am 31 almost 32. Woot.

Someone switched my chair in the office again. I hate this one because it creaks and makes a lot of noise. :( Bleh.. I should go hunt down my old chair.