What it means to me...

I've been thinking a lot about friendship the last few days and having rather lengthy discussions with my favorite thinker over it.

To me friendships are forever.. if someone chooses to sever the relationship and walk away, that is their choice.. but unlike other people who would turn around and walk the other way if their friend did that.. I always have my arms open for people I consider my friend. You can hurt me deeply, walk all over me, make me cry.. but I'll still be there. Once I've let someone in my heart.. it's a permanent thing. I don't know HOW to let go, even when I should.. but that's part of what makes me different from most people.. and I'm ok with that.

Hate is another thing we've been discussing. Hate is a very powerful emotion.. it can eat at you until you're barely able to feel anything aside from it. Hate makes people do strange things.. it makes them become cruel and vicious when they normally aren't... it makes people forget that there is good in everyone.. and it makes people do things they regret. Everyone hates.. it's just a matter of deciding what you want to hate.. and what you're willing to just shrug off. I'm not saying you can't dislike other people.. I'm saying that instead of hating someone why not just move on from them and stop letting them have an effect on your life.. hating them gives them the satisfaction of knowing that no matter what you do, they are going to be a festering wound in your side.. let it heal.

Everyone has regrets.. sometimes they are big regrets and sometimes they are small. You have to make a choice of what you want to regret in life.. are you confident enough in your choices that they aren't going to come back and haunt you in the future? Not many people are.. there is always that doubt in the back of their mind. Should've, would've, could've.. don't let those things run your life. Make your regrets small.. and keep them that way.

Life is to short to live it in misery and grudges.. remember, you never get promised tomorrow. It's never a guarantee that you will wake up the next morning and be able to fix the things you want to fix.

To my friends.. I love you, I would hope that each and every one of you already know this. You can never hear I love you, or say I love you enough.. cherish those you do, and those who do you.